GAH

I woke up about three or four times today before actually getting out of bed. my sleeping system is pretty ridiculous. I slept at two a.m. four three days straight and now, I feel as though I am once again jeopardizing my health. and I was supposed to visit the seniors today! I am pretty disappointed in myself. I haven't been able to visit them because of red and gold, which is still no excuse. just imagine this..

you are allowed to wander within a half mile radius. The list of things to do include nothing but eating, board games, and television. only certain people visit you and these visits are not even frequent. and on top of that, your brain is slowly deteriorating. I do not care if someone is considered the biggest asshole; no one deserves that kind of shit.

=(

I swear volunteering has enlightened my mind. and to think all the times I considered my life horrible.. maybe guys can be assholes, school is a bitch, and friends are interchangeable, but I have a family who loves me and a handful of friends who will never abandon me. in reality, I have no reason to be hateful towards my life.