I loved today. my best friends arrived early to help me prep and keep me calm. each time I started feeling frantic, I found someone to calm me down. I saw familiar faces and some faces I haven't seen in ages! I received dozens of birthday greetings, cards, hugs, gifts, ect. everything about today was so wonderful. I don't deserve any of this for this, I am so thankful. I have an amazing life. I have an amazing family. I have amazing friends. I am truly blessed. thank you Lord for everything.
=))))))

is it really my birthday tomorrow? reality hasn't hit me yet.. the whole getting older, experiencing my last moments as a child, determining my life plan hooplah. I just want to see my friends for my birthday. my best friends, my old friends, and some familiar faces. I want my mom to place aside her pride and recognize that resentment never disappears. I want to see my family for thanksgiving. I've never been very materialistic and I swear every year I ask for the same, priceless presents. that is, except for the cost of materials needed for my home-made card =)




I am ALMOST finished with my UC apps. now onto the remainder of my common application and supplements!

Alan:

I think you can only take one more to make apps in time

Caitlin:

yes, december

but should I be tripping out?

Alan:

Naww December is far away

relate it to your birthday

it won't come soon enough so take that piece of infinity and study

Caitlin:

thanks alan

you always make my day.

I gotta DO WORK. but, my birthday is slowly approaching and the week after.. the SAT's =O

I'M BUSSSSSSSSSY, BUSSSSSSSSY.

athletic training, mock trial, yearbook, cross training, college apps, and school in general..
SAVE ME. I wish I had more time for myself -____-

"All the best DJs are saving
Their slowest song for last
When the dance is through
Its me and you
Come on would it really be so bad?
The things we think might be the same
But I won't fight for more
Its just not me to wear it on my sleeve
Count on that for sure."
Jimmy Eat World -Work

mmmm, I love good music. my playlist hasn't been thoroughly updated since 2003 =/ I want to be exposed to all kinds of artists. I'm still waiting to go to my first REAL concert. PLEEEEEEEEEEASE! =)))

"Heal me. Hold me. Be with me, God."

EFFFFF

NOT AGAIN..

misss me, missss me, now she wannna kiss me

I find myself always wanting more than I deserve. I should be content.. but I want so much more.. out of myself, my life, and those around me. my fear of the future overpowers my excitement for what awaits me. I am still bothered by the obscurity in it all and clueless to how I should feel. should I be indifferent? angry? upset? I am trying to make sense of the nonsensical.. the illogical. ironically, even if these answers do exist, they would probably be found in the places I would never dare to look.

I definately battle nostalgia.. all the time. I miss this. I miss that. I miss it all. but, life goes on. as far as I know, I am wasting my time lingering on the past. what do I care?

on a side note, I love, love, love the weather. blazers, sweaters, boots, beanies.




meet my idolsss