AH

I could be stressing out like a bitch right now.. about every, single fucking thing. but instead, I am just going to confront all that I will eventually have to. I don't know where I am going and who exactly I will become but I am choosing to enjoy where I am at and who I am with.

SMITTEN

=)

I really cannot explain this feeling. it's exciting, comforting, and just amazing.. I have countless worries but this feeling just puts my stress, anxiety, and fear aside. all this time, I have been looking for ease. and I am finding it in the most convenient places. I am finding this ease in hugs, smiles, conversations, phone calls, text messages, ect. I swear this is exactly what I have been praying and waiting for.



"I just wanna hold her hand, be her man.
I wanna know if she’d take a chance.
Cause I still have not revealed it,
Cause I still get the feeling,
That loving her is a game I’ll always lose.
I got the brown eyed blues."

I have been pretty angry lately at nothing in particular except for myself. I am just so damn tired and so damn stressed. I think my lack of sleep has left me affected and I don't mean to act the way I have been. I just have plenty on my mind. AP's are done but this judging of my competency is continuous. when does this stop? I just need to breathe and smell the roses for a little.. I should be grateful. I know I should be. forgive me for being selfish =/


my mind tends to drift off in a world completely different from my own. I love people who just take me away from everything that gives me anxiety and the people who just calm me down. I noticed my greatest friends have the ability to ease my mind; it's what I need from time to time.. a little common sense and a touch of humor. AHHHHHH, I miss so many people.

I really have to stop underestimating myself. what good am I if I do not believe I am good? I have always had this issue with myself and I really need to avoid this negativity because THIS negativity is bring me down..




I CAN DO THIS.
I CAN DO THIS.
I CAN DO THIS.

what am I thinking?

I'm scared.




"if there's nothing, don't force it. if there's something, don't fight it."

life

I really don't know what I want anymore.. with anything really. my goals seem so vague and all that I thought I wanted seems so distant. we study and work to an excess in order to earn a decent income but realistically, are the rich also the happy? I don't know what I want out of my life yet.. I thought I wanted to pursue a career in corporate law, but I am rethinking my path. I think wherever I end up for college, I will be leave my major as undeclared. and I need to believe in myself more. I want to do something that gives my life meaning and gives me a feeling of satisfaction.




The Director of Career Services at University of California at Berkeley's Boalt Hall School of Law tells us to that ''Those students who come to law school with a clear understanding about why they want to be a lawyer ... ultimately have a better chance of staying in the profession and being happy with the choice they made. Going to law school because you don't know what else to do when you graduate from college is never a good idea. Go out into the working world and find out what you might want to do, then decide whether law school is the right choice.''

bla⋅sé

Show–adjective
indifferent to or bored with life; unimpressed, as or as if from an excess of worldly pleasures.

I am feeling slight nostalgia. I miss my lolo. I miss my lola. I miss my friends. I miss my brother. and I am sick of writing such melodramatic blogs. on a positive note, taken how much stress I have been under lately, I have been handling my current situation pretty well =) SLEEP has become nonexistent for me. no more phone calls! I need to keep my focus.

anyways, I thought these were reminiscent of the old days..















crazy to think who I was close to back then and how fortunate I am to have the people I do now.

"Adding your own spin to something that’s been done before is fine, but it won’t win you any awards for being unique. You need to find a way to be original but in a way that adds something valuable, memorable, and something worth talking about."



I am planning on pulling an all-nighter for reasons I cannot fully explain. now, how the hell can I become a compelling student by october?