I am so blinded.. all the time. if this is how it should be, then why do I feel so lost and confused? the answers are evident, clear, and in plain sight. yet, I still do not understand why and I continue to search for the goodness in all of this. the goodness, I keep telling myself, has to exist somewhere. but where and when will I see the light? I hate wondering


WHY
WHY
WHY


when I have the answers. the light exists; I must never lose faith.




_CAIT

highlight of my week/month: confession
father mike showed me the love I need to feel and see. I revealed to him all the burdens that have been weighing me down. I released all the hurt, anger, and negative feelings. I needed to be reminded of all that I blessed to possess and all that I still have to look forward to. he showed me the power of faith and most importantly, God. I have been looking for the answers in all the wrong places; what I sought could only be found within. I am so blinded with all the distractions of life that I forget how to live.. live the life I am called to. I am striving to become the best possible person I can possibly be.

"So the trouble is not with the law, for it is spiritual and good. The trouble is with me, for I am all too human, a slave to sin. I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it."
- Romans 7: 14-17

Mr. Powers stands true when he said not believe what we are told. we must go forth and investigate these fallacies for ourselves. I am asking questions and finding the answers I have been searching for. each day I grow deeper in my faith, I fall all the more in love with what I am apart of.


_Cait

I have been drowning myself in my studies. college is around the corner and apart of me wants college to come.. I want to be done with the stress and last-minute additions to my applications. but, do I really want high school to end?

funny how all my "last" everything is finally becoming a reality. I experienced my last welcome back dance, which, might I add, was not the least bit shabby. ASB encouraged "appropriate" dancing =) haha, I love dancing and not caring the least bit of what I look like. oh, and my sister snatched the cutest freshman ;)

G,
help me see the light.. because things aren't making sense.

love,
C

Karina Pasian - Slow Motion


and hello james! (if you really do read my blog, haha)
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miss you.

when everything seems to be going downhill and I feel as though I have no one to turn to, I always think of you. I am growing up, working hard, and making you proud. and even though I can't see you, I feel your presence all around me. I miss you every day.

_cait