rant

I am tired, very tired and stressing only adds to my negative mentality. if I don't get into the school of my choice, so what? I put in hours of restlessness and sacrificed my overall well-being in the process; what else could I have done?




I am trying, I am really, really trying. I know there will always be room for improvement but do I really have to push myself to the edge of my sanity? I am so happy right now. in fact, I have been the happiest I have been in a very, very long time if not in my entire life. my junior started out rough, RIDICULOUSLY rough but my family, friends, and other aspects of my life are wonderful.. more than I could ever ask for. and I hate how I am choosing to bring myself down because of school. all that I have done and continue to do should be good enough. I really want to just say to myself, "I did what I could and I am proud of what I was able to accomplish."

as for now, my future remains a mystery.. but I think I am going to pay a visit to the chapel tomorrow. praying alleviates my stress.